Nervous

I'm nervous
I'm torn in my thoughts
Whether telling the truth
Or letting them at bay
Would still help me

I'm nervous
I'm mixed with signals
Duplicating tensions in my muscles
Boring deep holes in my heart
It's pain drowning

I'm nervous
I'm broken by looking forward
Fighting the real away
Yearning for an illusion
Yet still not surviving

I'm nervous
I'm waiting for a call
To clear my mind perhaps
To open my heart out
And free my prisoner.

Perhaps letting my nerves
Take over my pride
Is the happiness I need.