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You are my darkness, he thought

He'd been delighted to witness her cracked ,rough ,fleshy ,bleeding, open dreadful kind soul, 

He'd been fortunate to feel her wounds oozing blood pus water loathing disgust, his fingerprints scratched anytime he touched her

He saw her fears soaring to warm her sanity else she'd lose everything,. 

He'd given love to her but soar words she heard,

Maybe she was happy in her cold place 

Maybe he was wrong loving her.

ghost 👻

Inviscible 

She stared at me like nothing had happened

She walked past me, like it was obvious, 

She gave me a stern look like what's up bitch

Dead,I try to speak up, I I wanted to feel inviscible like how you saw me , I wanted the courage to speak up to you,I wanted to be close yet away, I just wanted to sleep on it and forget about the other night

I'm petty but happy, hard but soft,, I walked to you with an apology and you turned back like no don't do that, then no you said it okay, like it's normal like it was nothing, you said that these things happened and bitch that broke me, I didn't sleep the whole night or the better part of my night because I knew we had a connection, because were it not that I feared the noises you could make,I wanted to do more,like I knew I could do better and you say it's normal, I spend sleepless nights just trying to feel whatever I felt with you, I crave and I'm turned on whenever I see you, but you said it's normal and fuck that 😞 sucks.

You are my darkness.

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I listen to all

I always do especially that my house happens to be 1st house yet still ironical that it's numbered 12,

Yet today the atmosphere is relaxed, there's laughter as a few walk in while others stagger as they get in ,it ain't quite as usual, it's not tensed as always, it's noisy yet clear.

I'd say a happy hour or perhaps a new month, no papers no assignment no CAts no deadlines no match coming up

It must feel good to think you're actually free.